20 JUL 22: I finally gave up. Not fighting it any more. For three-and-a-half years, all this time, I’ve been struggling to recover from a lumbar nerve root damage injury that is not going to get better. Considering how the c-Spine progressed over the years, I only hope the lumbar doesn’t go retrograde at some point. No amount of massage, stretching, rehab or exercise of any kind has ever shown anything but fleeting temporary relief. Drugs, pharmaceutical or otherwise, are only a thin veil of suppression. So I’ve resigned myself to establishing a new lifestyle using a cane or brace any time I need to be on my feet more than ten minutes, and spending at least half my waking hours resting when I’m not. Memory of those days is fading, but it literally feels like I’ve been on my feet all day every time I sit down.
Musings of a minor megalomaniac